Choosing to Pursue, Despite My Feelings


I remember multiple times in my life where I haven’t necessarily felt a strong desire to get into God’s Word and study. So, I didn’t. Before you knew it, it had been a week and I hardly spent time digging into the Scriptures.

Because of my fallen nature, I don’t naturally desire to spend time with Christ; but the beautiful miracle is, that once I was saved, I was given a new heart which now desires and longs to worship Christ. However, because I still have that old sinful nature inside, it wars with my new nature. This puts me in a predicament, one that the Apostle Paul struggled with, as well: “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” (Romans 7:15)

There is a war within me, which is why I can’t rely on my feelings. I can’t let my feelings determine whether or not I grow in my relationship with Christ. I must choose to make time for God’s Word. I have to pursue, seek, make myself get into the Scriptures, learn and then grow. I have to pursue even though I might not have the passion at that moment.

“‘Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.’”

In the parable of the talents, the Master of the house gave three of his servants different amounts of money to steward while he was gone. When he came back, the first two servants had doubled their share, while the last servant had went and buried his, keeping his amount the same. (Matthew 25:14-30)

In the same way, God has given me His Word, not for me to “bury” and put back on the shelf, but to read it, learn from it, and hopefully, through prayer and God’s amazing grace, grow more and more into the likeness of Christ. To come farther in my walk with Christ, than I was a year ago; to “double my share.”

“The Bible is not an end in itself, but a means to bring men to an intimate and satisfying knowledge of God, that they may enter into Him, that they may delight in His Presence, may taste and know the inner sweetness of the very God Himself in the core and center of their hearts.” A.W. Tozer

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